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Dear Adam,

I could say I miss you.  And I do miss you.  I could be crying right now.  In fact, I’ve cried today already.  But today, in this post, I actually want to celebrate.  I want to celebrate all of the ways I am seeing things happen that are changing the course of people’s lives because of the impact you have made on MY life.

After you passed away, my mom told me something I will never forget: “You could be sad about this.  In fact, its good and its okay to be sad about this. But remember something: what you do with your future, that is going to have an impact on people like Adam, people struggling like Adam was, so that someone else doesn’t have to go through what he did.”

I saw that so clearly just today.

I had a conversation with someone earlier today who is struggling with depression much like you were, Adam.  And I was reminded of all the ways God has used people, and God has used me, to help him through that.  This young man, this college student, is being impacted because of you, and the impact you had on my life.

I also just found out that I have been hired as a campus staff worker with InterVarsity Christian Fellowship to help plant a movement to reach Greek students on campus at UC San Diego and let them know they are loved by Jesus.  I found that out today.  I don’t think that was an accident, Adam.  Adam, I think that God wants to use the impact you had on my life to reach Greek students just like you.  And I feel honored to be an agent of that impact.

You have left a legacy, Adam.  Your life is having an impact.  And students like you are going to hear what people should have been telling you all along.  Jesus loves you, Adam.  Jesus loves the gay frat boy sophomore UC Merced student best friend ex boyfriend big brother to Ariel younger brother to many hyper fun awesome Adam.  Jesus LOVES you.  And He is using you to change lives.

Thank you for inspiring me.  I miss you, and I will always miss you.

Love, Jennifer